So I guess I just talk about Mom way too much. We were rocking out to this song and Bella said she liked it. I made the comment, "GG liked this song too."
Bella looked at me incredulously, "Yeah, but GG's already dead."
It made me laugh, honestly. "Yeah, but GG liked music when she was alive too."
Today was the first day of our Bible study about having "missing pieces," or holes, in our faith. I'm really hoping that this will help me move on with my life and accept the things I can't change.
Already I feel like I'm part of a group. Even if it's a new group, even if I'm facing all my anxieties by reaching out and participating in something new and different.
I feel a little better every day, now. After so long trudging downhill, I finally think that I'm starting to climb out of this deep, dark pit that my grief made.
I still have a long way to go. Sharing a story here and there about Mom will never cease. She will forever be nothing if not entertaining! I can't think of a time that we didn't end up laughing outrageously every time our family is together. And I always take time to share the stories about Mom with the girls, I guess to an embarrassing degree!
Just the other day I bought Steel Magnolias at the grocery store, on a whim. I busied myself with dinner and other such tasks while the girls watched it. Their reaction to it, or Anna's in particular was something to the effect of, "You said it was such a great movie, it's really sad!" Addison liked it so much she took it to her room and watched it again.
Steel Magnolias, if you didn't know, was one of Mom's favorite movies. Nearly every time we watched it together we cried during the cemetery scene. You know the one. "Laughter through tears is my favorite emotion."
